So when I was down in Florida I only had one day to visit with my family. My mom called when I was at my dads and was of course drunk. It was only about 12. My brother says she started drinking as soon as she was off probabtion. Does it make me a bad kid for not wanting to see her? It used to not be so bad because she only had a phone to get ahold of people. Easy to avoid anything really. I guess its the same thing now that she has internet but I was on facebook and she sent me a message. Saying something about children not really caring and how shes a horrible parent but my fathers worse. I can't flat out ignore her because after all she did bring me into this world. Something she wont let any of her kids forget. When I was younger and she wanted to cut my hair but I didnt want her to she would say "It's my hair, I made it." The whole guilt trip thing doesn't really affect me anymore, I've grown immune. I guess it's the fact that after so many years she still tries to make me cry. When I was down there I heard my brother refer to her as a kid. Needy and whatnot. It's true really. The thing that gets me is when she wants to find a ride to a boyfriends or anywhere like that she finds it (too many DUIs, she lost her lisence YEARS ago) but when it comes to finding a ride to visit her only daughter.. its impossible and then I'm the one to blame for not visiting her? Last time I visited her I spent a week and a half with her and what did she do? Sat in front of the computer and took surveys that you get paid for. Anything to try and get rich quick.

I should really get some sleep but I'm not sure I can. I have to be up in 4 hours to drive my brother to school. Silly kids and there getting in trouble.