So about an hour ago I went to try to go to sleep (I have to get up for work in about 4 hours) I was laying there with a bunch of things running through my mind. Occasionally my boyfriend would say something in his sleep and I would laugh then all of a sudden he says "Its Always what YOU wanna do! Women!" Then I started crying and had to get up and smoke a cigarette.
I guess I could understand where that came from considering todays events.
He's been saying he's going to miss me the 3 days I'll be down in Florida for my friends wedding so I told him today that when I get home there wont be any video games since I leave tomorrow. We got home and searched for something to eat and I couldn't find anything I wanted so while he was eating I checked my internet stuff, started talking to my friend about how shes going to pick me up, if I wanted to go eat after I got off the plane, and what she would like me to wear to her wedding. Kind of important stuff. So after that I told her I had to go. Sometimes I can't stand sitting around doing nothing so I decided we should set up our video game station today since he brought home a nintendo 64 for me. He wanted it to be a suprise but how could it have been when he was visiting with the friend that he said he was going to buy it from. So I took the stuff off of the table we planned on setting up all of this stuff on, took it apart and when I was putting it back together he brought out my tv that had been buried underneath a bunch of stuff. I went to put stuff away that I had dragged out of the storage room in order to get the table out and with this giant thing in my hands I walk into the storage room only to find everything that had been covering my tv strewn about so I couldnt put away what I was holding. My reaction was "What the crap Aaron." His response to that was "well what else was I supposed to do with it." (Granted there was nothing else he could have done except put the stuff away after he had dragged the tv out) So after I put the stuff away we figured out the 64 doesnt work. Something with the video wire. I suggest maybe we should get out of the house, maybe walk around walmart. (Its the only thing To do in this town at that time of night) He said he didnt feel like it. Okay no problem with that. We settle for watching videos online. We call it quits when our difference in humor starts to leave us blanks in the search engine and the bench I was sitting on starts to get uncomfortable. So I go in search of food once again and find a sandwhich, snack bar and the rest of the chicken in a biskit. We decide to watch a movie and I say we should watch it in the living room because I didnt want to bring the food in the bedroom. So we cuddle some while sitting on the couch during the movie, then he lays down and I get bored since I've seen that movie before so I decide to go online. Near the end of the movie he gets really tired and goes to sleep where I stay up for a few more hours and then try to sleep not succeding which leads me here.
It's funny that he said that in his sleep.. or was he sleeping? Because he was wispering and was speaking clearly.. who knows. Anyways, when I was laying there for that hour I was thinking that hes too much of a push over as far as dicisions. I guess he just doesnt speak his mind. (most of the time its saying "play video games!" .. funny how he can concintrate on a mission in a game but blank out half way trough one of my sentences. .... "sorry babe my A.D.D. kicked in") *sigh* I was thinking about how in the future if we do get married and have kids, when they ask for something his answer will be "ask your mother" ya know, the sterotype kind of thing.
He speaks his mind to his mother. Like when she spends money on unneccisary things instead of things like a new sticker for her car then blames all of her kids fathers for not sending child support when she only has one thats under 18 still. Oh well. I guess I just want him to speak his mind to me.. about what I say or do. Other then that, I think things are great.
