So today my boyfriend blew up on his mother. We give her rent for bills. Bills don't get paid and we get screwed for it. A few months ago we had our cat fixed and declawed. 110 dollars. His mother said give her the money and she'll write a check to hand them when she picked him up. Sure okay.. nothing too suspicious about that. So they call back a week later and the check bounced. She said she would go in and pay them the next time she went into town. She goes into town about 2 times a week at least. A few days ago my boyfriend gets a letter in the mail from the animal hospital and I open it. I figure it has to do with our cat and he wouldn't mind. I barely get to read it before she takes it out of my hand and says she'll have a receipt for the payment by next week. 128 dollars now thats owed. It ticked my boyfriend off when I told him. They got in a fight today about how she spends all of her money on drugs. She throws out there that he spends money on video games. That really pisses him off and for a good reason. His argument: His spending is legal and he makes sure he has all of his things in order before hand. She tries saying that she hasn't been buying as much as she used to, like thats going to calm him down or anything. Of course she pulls the whole guilt trip thing. "Nothing I ever do is good enough." Bottom line. We're seriously considering moving out now. Tomorrow morning we're going to talk to this guy about a place. He says he might accept cats. I might have to leave my job for a while. I'm thinking about applying at a few places in the town we plan on moving to. I'd like to keep my job I have now. I don't see why they wouldn't let me come back. Kids are leaving for school all the time and coming back in the summer. Besides, they say that I'm one of the best bussers they have. lol Anyways, once I find a car I can go back to work there. It shouldn't be long before we're able to find a car for me. Maybe Feburary. I figure if we use the money we get back on taxes plus the money we save up it shouldnt be too long, especially if we file right away.

So today feels like everything has been turned upside down and flipped around. At the same time though, I feel like I can feel the sun shining from the other side. I think if we move out, even though it'll be tough. It could be better.

My dad called me a stupid yankee.

He's a perverted ass hole.

My boyfriend and I went to see the movie Where The Wild Things Are. It was adorable. Now I want to make Maxs wolf suit and run around town in it screaming like a wild child. Maybe it's because I've always been a quiet individual with the mind of a wild child. I've always been tempted to be a pain in the ass. Lol Too bad now I'm old enough to be arrested for disturbing stuff. Lol I'll just rake up some leaves and attack them with a stick. xD

So when I was down in Florida I only had one day to visit with my family. My mom called when I was at my dads and was of course drunk. It was only about 12. My brother says she started drinking as soon as she was off probabtion. Does it make me a bad kid for not wanting to see her? It used to not be so bad because she only had a phone to get ahold of people. Easy to avoid anything really. I guess its the same thing now that she has internet but I was on facebook and she sent me a message. Saying something about children not really caring and how shes a horrible parent but my fathers worse. I can't flat out ignore her because after all she did bring me into this world. Something she wont let any of her kids forget. When I was younger and she wanted to cut my hair but I didnt want her to she would say "It's my hair, I made it." The whole guilt trip thing doesn't really affect me anymore, I've grown immune. I guess it's the fact that after so many years she still tries to make me cry. When I was down there I heard my brother refer to her as a kid. Needy and whatnot. It's true really. The thing that gets me is when she wants to find a ride to a boyfriends or anywhere like that she finds it (too many DUIs, she lost her lisence YEARS ago) but when it comes to finding a ride to visit her only daughter.. its impossible and then I'm the one to blame for not visiting her? Last time I visited her I spent a week and a half with her and what did she do? Sat in front of the computer and took surveys that you get paid for. Anything to try and get rich quick.

I should really get some sleep but I'm not sure I can. I have to be up in 4 hours to drive my brother to school. Silly kids and there getting in trouble.

So my brother says he doesnt want to see his mom with a joint in her hand until she gets the tags on the car starightened out. So today I get to listen to his sister use the word fuck like she needs it to survive. Her reason? Her head always hurts when she doesn't smoke and it always gets worse. I'm really sick of this house.

 

Anyways. Went to my friends wedding on Tuesday. I get to the airport on Sunday and the fricken plane is delayed by 2 hours so I didnt get there until 2 in the morning. Oh well. The wedding was wonderful my friend looked fantastic. =)